The "How"

So that is the what we've been doing.

This is the how we've been doing.

This has been the hardest move we have made. My heart has been heavy. Loneliness seems to always be lurking somewhere. Sometimes the kids cry at night. Joshua cries that he misses his room. Abigail cries that she misses our neighbors. Madelyn cries just because they all 3 share a room and Joshua and Abigail are crying.

We drove to Muscatine to see the middle school Chicago team return from their mission trip a few weeks ago. The team arrived an hour early. We missed them. The knot in my stomach got bigger and moved to my throat.

We are still in transition - no home, no friends, no neighborhood to start putting down roots. I spend most days in my parent's basement trying to keep our lives and our family functioning. Just passing through until we find a place to live in the town and neighboorhood where we will settle.

I have a good friend who calls and asks how I am doing, and I always seem to cry. But it struck me last week that if Ernie came home today and said, "Just give me the word, Mindy, and we will move back." I would say "no".

The last two months have been difficult, but God gives His strength. (And he gave me a wonderful husband.) And in the midst of all the pain, sadness and loneliness, I have a spot of anticipation and excitement for what the future holds. Life has changed. And it has been hard - but it will be good.